My Plan Not My Purpose

The apartment is gravely positioned down a stretch of road littered with trash on both sides. On any given night it would not be safe to walk alone. Weeds overgrown with a wilderness that mimics the very people that lived there. The apartment buildings exhibit an exhausted appearance of a woman once pretty but now worn and ugly from the men that have run through and in her.

The stairwell that leads to an upstairs apartment is dark, damp, and dingy.

My plan not my purpose led me up the stairs to one of the darkest seasons of my life. At no specific time, the smell of burnt plastic would fill the air. I soon learned this was the smell of crack cocaine.

My plan to be independent led me to sleep on an old mattress laid on the scuffed wooden floor of an apartment void of life. No furniture. No family portraits. No groceries to fix and sit around the table. Some days no water. Other days no electricity.

All by choice not by force.

My plan.

Not my purpose.

Was taken me to nowhere.

To be continued…

© 2016 All words & images by Tanya Graham unless otherwise noted.

Author: TanyaG

As a country girl growing up shy in Georgia, sharing my emotions was something that I did not do. I was a beautifully sun-kissed child that always felt loved but out of place. As I got older and life sent me through many roads both up and down, I decided I needed an outlet to put the many growing emotions and opinions from both the past and the present into perspective… so I began expressing through writing and photography. My idea of writing is simple and heartfelt. I do not consider my writing to be classified as poetry or that of a highly skilled writer but just words that are my own. So I really hope you enjoy my blogs, storytelling, and photography. As you enjoy this journey with me, I really hope you are inspired and motivated.

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